If you want to write / of living alone
Dave recommended this book to me: "If you want to write" by Brenda Ueland. It reads a bit like a Californian self-help book in some ways, but says copyright 1938 on the inside cover, so maybe it's an influencer rather than an influenced.
"Now some people when they sit down to write and nothing special comes, no good ideas, are so frightened that they drink a lot of strong coffee to hurry them up, or smoke packages of cigarettes, or take drugs or get drunk. They do not know that good ideas come slowly, and that the more clear, tranquil and understimulated you are, the slower the ideas come but the better they are."
Now there's a perfect description of my creative process, when I was working part-time at Newham. I'd get up every morning and fret and drink a cafetiere of coffee, swear and shout at myself for being so slow and lazy - it hurt. It made me hate music. I was saying to myself, just as Ueland describes,
"'I have nothing to say and am of no importance and have no gift'; or 'the public doesn't want good stuff'"
"Both extremes, both lies".
I'm only a few pages in, but it already feels like a very important book.
Now, there is an emphasis on solitude so far - a recommendation that the artist should spend a lot of time alone. This just so happens to coincide with a decision I'm currently trying to make, about where I will move next: I need more space and I want a certain kind of space that is not necessarily compatible with living with others.
I'd like to start a discussion of the pros and cons of living alone - who has done it? Who knows what it's like? Would it be a crazy thing to do?
Well I'd say that if you've never done it you should. So long as you don't get bedsit-syndrome it'll help you to appreciate living with other people in future!
[ peteW 18/08/2005 19:26:25]
What's 'bedsit syndrome'?
I've realised that the extra cost is a bit of an issue - but maybe it'd be worth it...
I think it's something I should try though, as you say.
I've realised that the extra cost is a bit of an issue - but maybe it'd be worth it...
I think it's something I should try though, as you say.
[ Mike 18/08/2005 20:23:53]
when...
your body odour and the lingering stink of your nearest take-away are fully merged and hazardous to everyone but you (and YOU don't even notice it!);
you can no longer remember a time when you didn't spend Sundays smoking in bed;
eye contact becomes other people's weapon in a war of social politics from which being at home alone is your only refuge;
you spend more time on the phone than ever before but resent it;
the only intelligent conversation you get is with your disturbingly right-wing landlord; you freeze 80% of what you DO cook in tiny bags;
AND you only feel safe when your door is locked...
...you're getting there
your body odour and the lingering stink of your nearest take-away are fully merged and hazardous to everyone but you (and YOU don't even notice it!);
you can no longer remember a time when you didn't spend Sundays smoking in bed;
eye contact becomes other people's weapon in a war of social politics from which being at home alone is your only refuge;
you spend more time on the phone than ever before but resent it;
the only intelligent conversation you get is with your disturbingly right-wing landlord; you freeze 80% of what you DO cook in tiny bags;
AND you only feel safe when your door is locked...
...you're getting there
[ peteW 18/08/2005 22:41:44]
Yikes!
[ Mike 19/08/2005 00:19:19]
living alone is great, more room to spread more junk. I have a boyfriend or friendboy karl wills (comicfactory.com) my life still sucks the energy out of me like a vacumn. Have you heard of the band whirlwind heat? jessica and the jawbreakers?
[ trace 22/08/2005 15:22:22]
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